How am I supposed to live life? What do I need to do to get ahead? Sunday is the day of my class picnic. Do I go? Should I stay home? I want to go but often I feel ashamed. Not being able to keep up with everything that my classmates are doing, unable to keep up with how everybody else's lives are going, is a hassle to me. Often times I want to break down but because people make me happy, I try to stay in a happy place. My class just want me to go to the picnic regardless of the fact that I don't have any money or nothing to contribute. I feel so bad, I feel so down because most guys look at me and think that "Oh I'm So Sexy, Oh Im so cute" But don't wanna help me. And if I have to ask, I don't want to beg. And if I hv to beg, I feel that it is beyond anything.
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