Memorial Day Shenanigans

I'm learning how to be okay with myself around those who I am not that comfortable around. Learning to be simply okay with myself after all of these years of being uncomfortable with everything. I am just comfortable being me. I believe once I turned maybe 36 or I just was tired of living under a cloud. I wanted time be Happy with myself. And by all means I did What ever it look to get there. Often my family thinks that I can't cook. Only because I am not around enough for them to try my food. I get to spend more time with my family.

My life in a nutshell

Why am I having such a difficult time doing anything? Today Ms Render had me in tears. I know that I need help. I don't need anybody else to point that out for me. I was offended. Why did it hurt so bad? Not sure but it did. I don't need anybody else to point that out for me. No thank you ma'am. I don't need your assistance in that direction. That is not helping me. Helping me is helping me not telling me that I need help. So apparently I can't get help that way. I was offended that She suggested that I only forgot Maijahs appointments and noone else's. I know that I have work to do so I have to start with me. I wanted to crawl under a rock with the way she made me feel. But ok, enough of feeling of me feeling inadequate, I will do better. I have to. Yeah I know I need therapy, you're telling me something that I already know, thanks for paying attention to that. I don't appreciate her harsh judgement, her character means well. But her word delivery is not the best. I just have to try harder. I really appreciate all of the help but no thanks.