Lazy days

     As I sit rather lay here thinking. I am motivated to write. My blogs are a plc for me to express how I feel. When I feel a certain way, I write.

     I write whatever is on mind and what is in my heart. I hv bn lay with my writing as of lately I am trying to figure out which way my life is going in. Tryna get back to square one. This is one of the hardest task to date for me. This MS illness has made certain days and tasks quite difficult for me. The cognitive issues are something to deal with.

     Initially whn I saw the scan of my bad with the scars/sores I nvr really thought much of it. But I had nvr looked further. For you to be diagnosed wit this illness it takes everything in you to not feel a certain way about it about everything.

     There was always anger, then I had to accept the fact that this illness is here and not going anywhere. There isn't a cure so what can you do? Nothing but accept it. Life always has a way of getting what it wants.

     At first, I looked at this as this being another plan for my life. I am not meant to be like everyone else. My life has to be different. I am only one of a kind. I have to move differently. I have to make better changes for me. You can't stay in denial about your life, you have to accept the good with the bad. No matter what you can't give up and not live your life the best way for you.

     Always put your best foot forward and keep it pushing. Keep your mind focused on the finish line. Sure there will be difficulties however; you can't stop moving.

     All I know is that I can't stop following my dreams. I hv to get everything that is owed to me.

    

A whole New Day

    Today is February 4, it a Sunday and I am the house alone.  He had to work today. A few days ago, someone had told me that my days of going through struggles with my housing shld be over. This has been more than 3 yrs that I struggled to have housing. It has bn a long time without it but I did what I had to, to survive. Recently I had to report about my struggle with actually just living my life. It has bn a complete struggle to simply just live life but it has gotten done. There has bn too many times that I left like giving up but; what wld that get me? Nothing more than heartache and hurt feelings. Currently, I strive to become the best version of myself. I refuse to strivel up like a dried up anything. I have to be out here more, doing more. Today is the day that I rake more out of life. I want a better life and who is going to stop me from giving myself that? I am vetting ready to bring another life onto this earth. How can I not look to become more? I have days where I am more motivated to do more. I have to strive for the best to become a better me.

With this being known I will succeed to becomung a better version of myself daily. When looking to become better I really don't want to turn any worthy job down. I have to continue until I can't go any further. #Motivated, #Happy, #KeepingItGoing, #Strive, #Love,