Crooked Smile

Me and my crooked smile So for the longest time, Damn near all of my life I have struggled within myself. I never thought I was pretty enough or good enough. I was pretty weird looking growing up and never felt pretty. I was weird looking and I didn't look like anybody else in my family. I come from a family where all skins are lighter than mine. My mom's is very light, my sister  is a little slightly browner than her and I am darker than the both of them. Growing up, I was darker than I am now. I always had people that made me feel like I was as pretty than them. My sister always had all of the guys who followed her around but nobody liked me. I was darker than dark and had ugly teeth. For a long time I felt uncomfortable for a long time. As I got older my looks changed. My teeth straight the dimple that I had became more noticeable. I saw picture of me smiling and a saw my dimple, I was amazed!! I had never noticed it as I was growing up. As I smiled,  I noticed something that made me feel better about myself. I always had insecurities growing up. As I grew and began to flourish I became noticeably pretty to all the boys. When I was in the 8the grade when had a dance. My mom was a hot mom and let me borrow one of her "move something" dresses for my dance. I wore the dress to school and had all of the boys in my schools attention. I had never had that so I was excited!! I began to see ho it felt for guys to want me. I felt pretty finally.

Since my sister always had all the guys, I would always get these funny looking brothers or cousins that only talked to me because they came with the guys who visited my sister. My sister had a boyfriend who had a cousin, who was fiiinnneee!! I was deathly afraid of his cousin who came to talk to me. They came to visit often and He would always sit on the porch with me. I was very shy, I wouldn't even look him in his face. I loved his visits but it was akward because I liked him so much I couldn't look at him. I was very shy. I can laugh about now that I am older now.

Now that I am older I can appreciate myself now; however when I was younger I always figured that I was too weird looking for anybody to like or appreciate me. I look back at all of my younger pictures and I can smile looking back at myself.