You thought that I cldnt tell, you thought that I was looking at life through rose colored glasses, only I see everything so clearly only choosing to simply watch and not speak. Holding my tongue has bn something that I have learned to do. Not divulging my secrets, not letting everyone else know what my plans are is my plan only because, what would I gain from letting the world in on my very private thoughts. A friend of mine posted about everybody that could meet him and be at a very public place for everybody to just hang out. I actually like this idea. The days of staying in staying in and bein an introvert has passed. Being able to get out, mixing, mingling and getting to know others is such a great idea. Being able to be around others is something to do nowadays. I am learning to do just that. I am living life and loving it.
Wednesday, August 17, 2016
Friday, August 12, 2016
What am I supposed to do?
How am I supposed to live life? What do I need to do to get ahead? Sunday is the day of my class picnic. Do I go? Should I stay home? I want to go but often I feel ashamed. Not being able to keep up with everything that my classmates are doing, unable to keep up with how everybody else's lives are going, is a hassle to me. Often times I want to break down but because people make me happy, I try to stay in a happy place. My class just want me to go to the picnic regardless of the fact that I don't have any money or nothing to contribute. I feel so bad, I feel so down because most guys look at me and think that "Oh I'm So Sexy, Oh Im so cute" But don't wanna help me. And if I have to ask, I don't want to beg. And if I hv to beg, I feel that it is beyond anything.
Saturday, April 9, 2016
Dreaming Big
So often at times, I am at odds with myself because my body is in a struggle with my mind. I dream big but sometimes my body can't keep up. I have to allow myself to not always instantly want to move when my brain says go. Being a disabled person or a person who has limitations on how much they can do, I have to realize that I can't always move when I want to. I am definitely in a struggle with myself everyday of my life. I do not like to admit that I have to give up. I do not like to stop moving towards my goals; however at times I either get easily distracted. In all actuality, I won't give up however I move slower than I usually move. But I never stop. I feel that the Lord gives me visions to do or create certain things. Then usually, I wait but by then it is too late or so I think. I keeps getting clues to just continue to keep going on with my progress. I actually keep seeing words that say, "It's never to late to start over." When I see that I know that it's God telling me to just do it anyway. And so I proceed and keep on doing what I need to. My life isn't like everybody else's. My life is my life snd mine alone. I don't nerd others advice or comments on how I should live or what I should do. I need to stop asking for advice because can't nobody live my life for me. Eventually I get it, I figure out what needs to be done anyway. I always want the best for myself whether others want the best for me or not. I am always getting the best
Friday, April 8, 2016
I am the master of my life
I have decided to simply, breathe in and out , live my life and move on. Is life so hard, no it isn't. You live life and continue to move past all of the trial and tribulations that try to hold you up. You can't let life stop your progression; no matter what. You can't let life stop you from pursuing your dreams. I allowed this to stop my progression once. And what did that do to me? It simply slowed my progression. However the Lord showed me that it was never to late to start over. I kept getting confirmations of this. I am happy that I was able to begin again.
Sunday, February 21, 2016
Saturday, February 20, 2016
The Recipe One extraordinary Day
I had the opportunity to be in the company of a few game changers. First off, I was able to be in the company of one of my favorite game changers. To me it was a one of a kind opportunity, to see and meet up with a few people who made the Detroit name a better place. I saw an opportunity to go where a few movers and shakers among Detroit's movers and shakers. It was as simple as sending an email. I got the email and sent it back in less than a minute flat. I immediately started thinking, my mind began to race. Was it this easy? Was this all that I had to do? I got excited once I got the return email. Did I have to do anything for this opportunity? Was there a trick to it? Hmm, I began to think.
However I just let things go, I had an opportunity to see and meet with not only a few of the top names of Detroit. Maybe I could get a few pointers from the people who has gotten to where I want to be. Once I got the confirmation email, I was too excited. I could hardly contain my excitement as I planned for the next day. This would be the day that I get to see and hopefully meet one of my favorite people on the world, Mr Mack Wilds.
See I had been a fan Mack Wilds for a number of years, actually since he was a teen starring in one of my favorite shows, The Wire. I had a certain kinda love for him. I had admired him a lot. I was kinda an introvert and didn't haven't had the confidence to allow myself be me. I followed Mack, known to me then as Tristan Wilds on Instagram. After The Wire stopped I continued to follow him without giving it a second thought.
One day while on Instagram I saw a post of his. Now I had became a fan of his acting and had continued to watch the movies that he was in. On Instagram he was talking about him having new music. I said to myself, "Now he has became a rapper, Okay, I wonder what he sounds like" The post had a red cassette tape and the name of the record was New York A Love Story.
I had never heard of him rapping but he said that people could find his music on YouTube. Instantly, I go to YouTube to see what he sounded like, check him out. Only once I started listening to his music, I was pleasantly surprised. He has a very pleasant voice and he was singing and that made me smile. I liked his voice for the music he was creating.
After found his music, I found him on Twitter. I began to tell him how much I liked him. He once was a model for Rocawear brand. He did a commercial where he said He will not lose. He said he would not allow himself to give up on anything. Those words will forever resonate with me. I can appreciate the person that he is. So for me to even be in the same place that he will be makes me feel on top of the world.
The day came and the time approached for me to see the person that I had been waiting to see in person. He was so cool. I speak to him on Twitter often and I hoped he would realize who I was. But then again he had millions of fans. And who was I? Just an adoring fan. The event was so fucking dope, there were so many people that I could learn from.
At the end of the event, once it, was over I was determined to take a picture with one of my favorite people on earth. I was waiting allowing others to go ahead of me, I was slightly nervous but ready. He saw how patient I had been asked me was I ready for my picture, of course I was but couldn't get the camera together on my phone to take the picture. He grabbed the phone and snapped 2 pictures. I am and will be forever grateful.
Monday, February 8, 2016
Thursday, January 28, 2016
Today has been one of those days
I can truly say that I am blessed. The Lord continuously shows me for no matter what and all I can do is be thankful. I had to do some running around, to get ready for my meeting tomorrow with the lady. My body is slightly tired and worn down. My throat is feeling slightly better today than it did yesterday. Being sick makes me feel horrible. However, I am feeling better than I did. I am able to put a smile on my face and keep moving forward. I can't help but love life.
Monday, January 18, 2016
Being different and fearing not fitting in
Growth
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