My Monday Mood

I need a schedule. I need to make sure that I follow a schedule. I need order in my life. And I've just decided what I need to do. I'm just thinking. We just went to court the other day. I feel like sore a loser. I can't afford my son. I couldn't afford any of my kids. I will always tryna come up with more money to live off of. As long as I am willing,  I should be able to do just that. Well life don't quite work that way. My old disabled body clearly is on it's own schedule. And she won't be pushed around by nobody. I want to be more productive with my writings. I have plans that I want to accomplish. I will at least earn my associate's degree first. I need to go back to school. I need to wake my brain up. I need some easy math classes, well just math classes period. I need something to stick. 

Well I am starting to be more productive. More productive with my writings,  my youtube channel as well. Since I'm not really supposed to be working as much however; I have to do something. I have to do as much as I can to not only make myself known, to make as much money as I can. I just keep coming up with different ways to make money. And I am sticking with my writings and with my blogs. I just want for everything in my life to go as I've planned for things to go. 

  Thinking of my kids,  all the time I do. I feel that I have failed them all. Me having kids,  I thought that I was doing one of my jobs. Now to think about it; I just have to come up with more way to live. More ways to come up with money. Donating is one of my ways to get money. Seeing Q,  now shows me that I need to continue to earn money. And the law group finally gave me more of my money. However,  that wasn't the amount that we agreed upon. I will continue to reach out to that office until I hear back from them. I'm glad that I finally get to live with subsidized rent. I never expected that living in this apartment. Finally,  I get help living in an apartment. I can get help paying my rent. I am finally going to live in my place with reduced rent. Well it is about time. Yay for me. Score one for me. It's about time for me to get money off  of my rent.

  So today my day has bn filled with unexpected surprises. I went to donate plasma today,  to not only getting a ride to 13 mile & Gratiot and finding out about a public FB groups to join. Kinda excited about the whole situation. Made a new friend today. She actually watched me earlier while I was on my way. She was a very nice. She was on her way leaving after she donated. She asked me if I needed a ride home. I was kinda concerned. To ask me if needed a ride kinda puzzled me but yea sure. Until you realize how far I live from here. I just went along with it. So I began to attempt to donate. 

    I got in line then a white woman started sayin that she was in line before me. Then the guy started telling me that the lady was in line before me. I said "okay but I'm sitting down here." Once the lady got in line before me there were a few things that went on. The workers can get my plasma goin quickly. And the same lady that made a big deal about being first was just then getting back in line from going to thr nurses office. ThI saw her when I went to the bathroom. She was just getting in line to donate. I  had to use the bathroom before I started donating. First the management told me that I had gotten in line before someone else. They actually called me into a room. They said that I was kinda shaky,  I told them that I was okay. He talked to me,  I just told him that I didn't take cuts or get in front of the lady either. Then he walked me to the blue section,  I was kinda unsure but proceeded to go to the blue section.i After I got back from the bathroom,  I simply donated. Then my time was up donating so was going to the bathroom. Then as I was leaving the rest room,  I saw the same lady who offered me a ride coming back to offer me a ride home. And I was there for it all. She walked back in to the donating place letting me know that she had came back to pick me up and take me home. Well take me as close as she could get me. I had a good day. And I was able to register to donate Thursday.

   And just like I started a new friendship. We talked for a while. First she tslked to me about the Biolife FB page. Then we talked about the people who work there. We had a great conversation. As she dropped me off at 7-11 on Gratiot. She told me a lil about her family. She has kids too. She talked a little about her bro-in law who had lost his job tryna donate Who eventually started having to donate to make ends meet like most of us there. Very was a very pleasant woman. Once we got to 7-11 we pulled up and I got out. I walked to the entrance then ealked in. I was looked for something to drink. I ordered a few snacks and a few drinks for the way home. I was happy,  I was on my way home with happy thoughts. I couldn't wait to get home. I couldn't find my keys so I went to go ask my neighbor something and just then my door opened up and Derrick appeared tryna ask me why I was at my neighbor's door. I was slightly confused but as I walked into my house I spotted my keys on my couch. We had food that he had cooked. I had only gotten a few things from the fruit market. I felt pretty productive today.

Sunday Mornings

So I'm starting a new routine. Sunday mornings qwill always be dedicated to my writings. This will be a new way,  a better way to come up eith more content. A better way to produce more. I am doing more in my life. My Sunday's will always be dedicated to my writings. I write as much a I can so that ppl can read my writings. Since I feel that I have so much to say,  so much that I can share with your eye's. It's Sunday,  a day that I've learned to set sometime aside and focus on writing my blogs. I'm starting over again. As long as I can start over to begin to do better that is what I will do until I get everything right. 

   So for now,  I will start my Sunday's at John's Family Grill for breakfast and will continue with my blogs after I'm finished eating. I had a ham and cheese omelet with hashbrows. Then had coffee and pepsi. I have an upcoming Dr's appointment Tuesday. And I finally get to speak to my primary Dr about helping me get a motorized scooter,  to help me get around better. Hopefully he can help me get a scooter. I never knew that scooters availible to ppl who can't get around that well. I'm somewhat excited about being able to finally get to go to Randazzo's the fruit market. They have the freshest produce on this side of the planet. I love eating fresh produce especially from this store. I've bn to more than a few of their store Randazzo's store in my area. I prefer to shop at the 13 mile store. I love fresh fruit and fresh vegetables. It tops everything. 

   I saw someone with a small personal scooter. I know a disabled woman ride who rides around on her scooter It was something that I hadn't seen anyone riding on their own personal scooter. This is a new subject for me to discuss with my primary care Dr. I need help getting something that I can ride on. Maybe it can help me get around a little better. We'll see how much better I can get around once I get a scooter to ride on. Life may be better once I get a scooter for me to ride on.

My memories as a kid

      Let me start posting more on my blog. Well I'm a mom that blogs. I have been blogging for a few years. Blogging is easy for me. I have always been a writer, for most of my life. It helps ease my mind especially when I'm troubled. I started writing when just a kid. I remember writing about something that troubled me. I was just writing without a care in the world. It never dawned on me that someone would find my writings and read them. I was only a kid when I wrote, I never realized that my step mom would find my writings, read them. I was devastated once she told me that she not only read them, she shared them with my dad. They realized that I knew their secret. I was a shy timid kid and was embarrassed that she read my writings. At that moment I knew that she knew their secret. Her and my dad both knew that I knew what their past time activities were. I'm not sure how they felt about me knowing their secrets but I knew. I'm pretty sure the rest of my siblings knew as well. Once I realized what their secret was I felt more informed about life. My writings were no longer a secret.

My MS Life

   I have MS and have had it for a number of yrs. I can't do as much as I used to and I've gotta get used to that. I just went for my yearly MRI. I'll call and ask later today. Hopefully I don't have any new spots on my brain. I've started taking walking pills. I need for rhe polls to work more sooner than later. I wonder what will happem once I get consistent with taking the pills. Well I have to remember what I have to do. I have to get stuck on taking the pills on time.And I have to double up on taking the pills on time. So I'm consistent in taking the pills at 9 am but; the 5 pm pills got forgotten about a lot. Life goes on and I forget daily about taking the 2nd pill. I gotta do better gor myself.