Forgiveness

To be able to forgive is much easier said than done. Epecially when it's something that you've held close to your heart. You can say "Ok, I can forgive you" but do you really mean it? Can you speak those words and truly let it go? Let go of a deep dark thing that has held you in bondange for so long, for so many years. That deep hurt, that pain in your heart that is so hard to walk away from. Can you actually leave it in a spot and walk away from it never to visit that place again. I once was in a place of that nature and the pain held me captive for years. I was able to address the pain,then walk away from it. I am much happier now and very happy to not be in the  I was in. The same place that held me captive for years. It was silly how kept me captive, I was afraid of moving. I was stuck because I was afraid of change. How can I be afraid of the changes that God set up for me? God doesn't want me to be afraid of all of his goodness he has planned for me. I will not be of all of his new works he has for me. I am not afraid of living life. Praying as I take my every step. I am not as I used to be. Forgiving people is not easy for person very stubborn. Some things aren't as easy as you would want them to be. In order for me to get to all of the goodness that God has for me, I have to cross a few barriers.  There were a few things that hurt me a lot I stayed in that confused place for years. I cried and I didn't understand why but I had to write it out and get it out of my system. To finally write it and move on was the best thing for me. It was quite a challenge to see certain people,to stand face to face with them and not be weak. To not afraid. See a long time ago, I learned to not face opposition head on. Now I realize it isn't that bad to face all of my fears. What I am scared of. There were tons of people who have done me wrong but I can't stop living life. I must move on. Not to say that I am an angel,I am not always right however I don't feel I cause all of the action that make my life so hard.  It's life so I can't trip. Gotta get over everything that I failed at and move on. Time to make everything right not only  in my life but the lives of my kids.only I want them to forgive me for all of my failures.