Tuesday, March 20, 2018
Saturday, March 17, 2018
Starting over and becoming a better more complete me
Hmmm, after I started on this new path of awareness I figured that I had to do things for myself and on my own rather than always allowing others to do the task that I needed to do myself. I figured that everybody else wld be on board with me learning to be a better person for myself. That was so not the case and instead of ppl wanting to accept the fact that I am learning to be independent for myself ppl really just want me to go back to bein the way that I used to be.
What wld be better than doin more for myself? I always waited on others to either help me or someone else to do it for me. I can't live life like that anymore.
And apparently, everybody isn't here for my progression. As soon as I thought that everything was goin well I had a falling out wit a close friend of 20 yrs and everybody started bein mad at me. But why? And all the help that was comin stopped instantly. As if ppl were told to stop helping me. If the help was coming to me, how can everything just stop. My feelings were hurt but there help in my feelings so why feel any kinda way.
I learned to pick up amd walk away frm everything that doesn't mean me any good. Ppl definitely get mad ab that but oh well. Progression is the name of my game and I can't stop moving towards my goals. My purpose is to get my family back together. I've sn the lies that were told but who cares ab how y'all feel. Let me be great. The end.
Sunday, March 4, 2018
Can't Understand
For the life of me, I won't ever understand how ppl will offer to do something for you but then really just want you to wait for them. There is no reason for any wait. If we agreed on a time and you go passed that time. How am I supposed to feel?
I am in a place in my life that I have no reason to put that stress on myself anymore. I feel that I have out grown certain situations. Dealing with everyday life as it comes exposes you to so much. And not wanting you to stay within the realms of what everyone else wants for your life.
Heey, you can't always please everybody but then it takes you to a place of where you realize for yourself that you want to just accept yourself and all that it entails. This creative space that I am in keeps me ready to be a better me.
No longer wanting to people please, I just wamt others more concerned with just simply wanting to please myself. I can just be happy being and accepting me for me not being concerned bow others perceive me. It definitely to me a while to vet here in this space and I definitely will not being going back to the old space in life that I used to be in.
Someone will always feel a certain way about my life and what they want for it and what they feel I should be. But as long as I am happy for and with me, that's all that matters to me. You can't expect for others to want the same for you this is a life. I had to learn to cut off all things that exhausted me and everything and everybody that is foolish to me. Nowadays people figure that I am explosive but not really. I have learned to be a better me for me. And people feel a way about about what they want for me however this life doesn't belong to anyone else but me. So why allow other people dictate your life when it's your life and not theirs? Why wld you be expected to make sure everybody else is satified with your life when your not satisfied in doin that?
This life was created only for you, so why spend all of your time making sure that you do everything to please other people?
