Late start

When I was a kid, I never felt like I could be anything. I was a push over, all my life. Did everything that everybody else wanted me to do. I never felt like I could do what I wanted. Never felt like I could follow my own dreams. I never felt like I could listen to my own inner voice. Why? I did I never feel like I could? Once I became older I began to think for myself. And once I did, there was no stopping me. I maybe a little old for do exactly what I want to do but I have to start somewhere. Lol I have to make my own mark on this world. I gotta learn to just do things for myself. I am actually starting where the good Lord wants me to. I have to start here and now. We all have issues, dreams and goals to accomplish. I am starting now. I gotta follow my own dreams and thoughts. I have start doing things that I want. Life isn't life, until you live it to the fullest. I guess, my life is really officially starting to go in the right direction, well the direction that I want it to. I have to plan as much as I can. I have to have my life mapped out. So that I can get the most out of my life. I want to write. I want to sing. I have to work on my look. I need my image to be better. I have to push my kids to do whatever it is that they want to be. Not push but make sure that they know that the choice is always theirs. I can help them but that is theirs lives to live. I have to get them into doing whatever they want to do. I have to go back to school. I have to take up some writing classes, some music classes, some vocal classes, some dance classes as well to keep my body from being stiff. That will help me with this MS and give me rhythm. I can admit that my body doesn't have any rhythm. It didn't have much have any  before the MS set in. I just need to dance and get some rhythm. I have to live my life like I never have before. Life is for living and I will do just that.