Often lost

Life isn't always fare but we Gotta live it to the max. This grieving process that I have to go through isn't easy. Stomach still in knots, having irrational thoughts to comfort me. All I know is that I am ready for this all to be over with, grieving and the way my stomach is in knots is definitely over rated. Because this brings back all of the thoughts and words that came to mind at the time. I am trying to get passed these hard times and feel better about the entire situation. I am not shedding tears any more however; still feeling this way as if I lost some one so important to my life. I can laugh, smile and remininise about our good times but I can not bring back  person who left this earth so abruptly.