I clearly don't understand

I am having the damnedest time getting some understanding. I feel so lost. I do not want to feel like I have No faith in the Lord however I feel like I keep hitting my head against a brick wall. I have yet to understand my life. I feel stupid because I keep going through so much and I keep getting cut off from any help. I clearly didn't understand why. When in fact, I was looking the wrong way, barking up the wrong tree. However I just have to have faith in the Lord and know he won't steer me wrong. They say that you will keep reliving the same situations until you get it, until you understand your mistake and until you change your way of thinking, changing your mind. Some situations aren't as easy to get, aren't as easy to understand or get the gist of and it takes a little bit longer to go through. And during that time you are clueless and wondering which way to go. You can often ask God why is this happening to me?  Why do I continue to go through the same situation, why these situations keep repeating themselves, why I keep reliving them or why life is a continuing time give me the same instances?  You have to stop and think about everything that you go through and figure out what works best for you and move forward accordingly. Learning how to move forward in the right way that works best for you is what needs to be done. I am beginning to do just that and moving forward is what is best for me.